You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action.

Great-ness.
when i enjoyed my post- night shift.
out with my girls.
camwhoring.
lite dinner. @ long john.
went over freda's function.
birthday bash,
truly fun.
karaoke-ing.
dancing.

bugis hang out place is love.

today. picnic day.
massage first.
out shop shop shop
then picnic
followed by. . .
meet up with the GANG.
whoo hoo...



Im stucked with Tegan and Sara - I know I know I know song..

check it out.

" Manifest plainness, Embrace simplicity, Reduce selfishness, Have few desires"

Loretta Lyn

so yeah.

my good friend got terminated.
sad!.
upset. like totally.

angie with her new camera.
me got myself the ring again!.
ju with bed 24??
shahira with ward 34.
rahiddeer's gone - private nursing!.
permanent night is really scaring me!.

angeline len deserves to be ill treated for shouting at me (random)
huan2 should go for counselling. what a pity ( hmm hmmm)
lay teng totally!. no comments. nice?

i want to further my education!!!
- advance diploma -
- degree -
i want to attend courses.


urgh!!!

after almost a week of rest.

now im back to work ( NIght Shift as of 2/2/09 )

house chores.

sheesha @ haji lane REIS.

simpang bedok.

ride home.

yes. your presence has affected me in alot of ways.

defination of certain words changes when feelings are involved.
such as:
- crazy -
- love -
 

so what happens now??

start with work...

- schedule are tighter... more work n time spent with just work...
new interventions yet its demoralising the workers...
patients are fussier, demanding...
workload are pilling up..
lesser staff to work with...
team 1 - 20 patients...
team 2 -18 patients...
night shift 2 staff nurse n 1 enrolled nurse..
stupid ratio!...
as much as i think its unfair to be facing such heavy workload... i think this is the time where as an individual, it is an opportunity to potray how capable i am handling such HEAVY responsibility. Bearing in mind that i am only  6 months old in nursing as a Staff nurse.


personal life.

balancing time for family n friends aint simple as it seems..
its when hanging out with friends clashes with hanging out with sisters...

the word travelling is lingering in my mind....all the time.
-> happiness is what i've been searching, n travel is one of them.
i realised when i travel to any location... it gives me a sense of peace n serenity...
one doesnt have to travel far to achieve that kind of satisfaction, just a boat ride away n wah la... there you have a place where one can take your own time to do things... n that others wouldnt bug or upsets me.

feeling alone??
guess not.. coz i know there are ppl who are at a much worst state than i am...
so i am lucky n blessed to be young n loved by family n friends...


pay day... urgh... days away.. n this month no allowance given!.. urgh... well just because my dear nurse manager didnt submit my allowance to the finance!... how nice... no bonus!. urgh!! super broke...

** im sleepy coz i've not gone to bed... ** 

now got to have my beauty sleep.....

in a matter a just few months,

i have made  good friends to be close friends.
been stronger even time i had downfalls.
believing i could be one of the best staff nurse in my ward.
i just need time, time is an essence.


stern, yes i am.

big appetite, yes i have.

contented, i am with people around me.

hard decisions made by me, thats aint easy.

soft side, i have.. really i do.

crazziness... when i'm letting my emotions and feelings out.
not in negative way, i mean.
its when i'm being open...

grudges... trying to eradicate those sort of feelings i have on others.
i mean its eating up by brain cells. taking up time and everyone would agree that its mentally draining.

in love?? yes i am in love everyday. i cultivated this " being in love every moment" when i realised i dun need anyone to make me feel special. instead,  i wake up every morning to find that ppl close to me, enough to make me love them more.. I
yes i would love to find someone for myself -> seriously i am. then again, its always time. perhaps its just aint the time for me...

support, especially to my dear dear friend juleha. she is in need of a friend to support her morally in times like this.. i am glad that i could of that friend. 



792347, i am envious of this person. friendship that was put at risk... 
I'm sorry.    



just called juleha up..
supposed to meet her at tampines by 10am.
yet as of now 9.42am, im still sitting in front of my comp.. blogging.
thats just me, i guess.

roy, befriend him. trust and honesty is wad needed in friendship.